&&get lost with me

Happy Hearts Day!

2008-02-14T15:32:48Z

*sigh*
So... today's the day... that singles like me... dread for... huh? xD

Anyways... I just stopped by.
Happy Valentines Day! <3

There. Because I love you guys <3

Recollection Today

2008-02-03T14:38:25Z

It was... like... a suckfest or something. -o-
Despite the fact that the topic was interesting; "love and sexuality".

There was a lot of free time... and no offense to our facilitator... he was a bit corny -o-.

Aish.... the only good news is.. NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! <3 ...
more sleeping and eating moments <3

Badminton Schedule

2008-01-16T12:49:38Z

Crap! I was supposed to register for membership today at the sports complex near our place.
-o-
But~~~ KARA freakin distracted me.
Urgh~
I promise... I'd tomorrow!=)
Or on Friday. lol

Gotta work out! Gotta work out!! =)

Missing KARA Syndrome

2008-01-15T15:16:28Z

Oh God!
When on earth will they come back?

I miss Gyuleader.
I miss Sung-bok oppa.
I miss Haem unni.
I miss Nikora. =(

I miss KARA. T__T

I hope once they make their comeback, they'll make a bang!
These girls totally deserve a lot. =)

넘보고싶어. 아잉
카라의 comeback을 열심히 기다릴께! =)
식신규리언니...
멋진성복이오빠...
귀여운햄언니...
만내니콜언니...
빨리 돌아와줘!! =)

Icon Spazz [January 14, 2008]

2008-01-14T13:12:55Z

I made them on the 12th, but I only posted them today though.
(Which explains why it says January 14 lol)

*sigh*
I guess KARA is a good way for me to cope with things.
ZOMG! I made BoA icons too... T__T
And forgot to include them on the graphic... Aish! -o-

For god's sake.... is this what you call art? (o.o)
Anyways, if you like some (i hope) feel free to ask it from me. I don't bite. =)

Drowning In Misery

2008-01-14T11:17:53Z

Until when.
Until when can I hold it all in...

Lately I've been feeling so frustrated, I've lost interest in listening to anybody. I just mainly want to procrastinate. Not that I'm insane or anything... but I guess on some level there's an insanity going on inside me.

It's fiery. It's destroying me. And it's scary... because... I think at one point... there will be nothing left of me... nothing left of my old self. My old happy-go-lucky self. I'm getting tired of giving and understanding. I'm getting tired of letting people step on me. It hurts already. Moreover, it's destroying me. I don't have faith in anybody nor in myself anymore. They destroyed it. They destroyed me and faith in humanity.

I'm not emo. I'm not ignored. I just want to be left alone. I just want people with nothing better to say to just shut up--cause you know what... it hurts. It hurts so much.... and I can't tell anybody.

I'm like a water bottle frozen inside the refrigerator for too long and too much. Too cold... I guess it's partially my fault for keeping it all in... but... it's only because I didn't want to hurt my mom. I didn't have the heart to tell her my sadness. I believe that the moment I do... I will drag her down with me. There's nothing in the world that I hate other than seeing her cry.

I want to be me. I want to be happy...
but when...
and how?

Just Today

2008-01-12T17:22:48Z

I don't really see anything special about today. (o.o)
Except for being disconnected to the internet for more than 5 times. -o-
Oh yeah, and my new Soompi avatar. Haha! Isn't it hot? Kim Sung-hee! =)

Gotta love her voice...
Oh yeah, I just basically read a book almost the whole day... (mostly because there was no net for me...)
Stainless Longganisa -- Bob Ong, such a funny read.
I always love reading Bob Ong books, mainly because it makes me laugh... but also because he makes sense. lol

-o-
Oh yeah, that new JYP singer... JOO. lol At first she got my attention, cause she was also another 'minjoo'. lol
But yeah, she's a great singer.
I know that her lack of looks shouldn't much of a bother to me or anybody... but... T__T
It honestly bothers me on some level. She's a great singer though!
Totally love her "Because of A Man."

I made a kazillion of icons today. -o-
(17 to be exact)

Haiz, that's all for now. =)

And It's All About You

2008-01-11T16:35:37Z

I don't want to miss you. What's the point? Yes, maybe I'll get to see you... I'll get to talk to you... I'll get to smile and laugh with you... but do I get to love you?

Maybe I get to. But do I get to be loved back? No. I don't. I know. You're like everything that I could ever want in someone and more, yet I can't have you. I've waited for someone just like you, yet when I met you, I also met the fact that I'm destined to not have my dream guy. I don't even know if you feel those little butterflies that I feel when I talk to you, when our eyes meet, and when we talk about stuff. I don't want to know. Because even if you did. Even if you liked me... even if you even liked me more than I do like you... we still can't be. Because I won't let you hurt her... and I won't hurt her either.

So--i'll just be happy being your friend and having someone to listen to my neurotic and outrageous thoughts and someone who thinks the same. I'll just be happy that I get to share sweet little conversations with you that to others may sound like just a pool of deep words but to us means our feelings, our hearts, and our beliefs.

마지막때 [In the end]
그녀는 나에게 소중한 사람입니까 널 포기할꺼야. [Because she's important to me, I'll give you up]
그녀는 널 사랑해기때문에 난 잊지만... [Because of her love for you, I'm forgetting you but...]
너에게 나의 사랑때문에 난 행복하게 잊을꺼야. [Because of my love for you, I'll forget you happily.]
너 같은 사람을 만나서... [Because I met someone like you...]
안녕~ [Bye]

Note: I know this is an emotional post, but... my Korean sucks, doesn't it? (o.o)

First LJ Post

2008-01-11T13:39:55Z

Ha! To celebrate my self-promotion, I decided to finally move my official personal blog to... LIVEJOURNAL!
I promised myself to like never blog on an LJ, since it's like so emo to my eyes. (i don't know why I thought that way... but I don't know.)
But hey, I've finally promoted myself to a self-proclaimed UN-emo EMO. (Didn't get that? I didn't either. -o-)

Today, hmm... what happened?
Well, besides for basically just sleeping the day away. (Which is bad, because I was on school. xD)
I just had so much... boredom. T_T
I guess, there's nothing much about today than the rest of the days this week.

Besides, discovering about my brother's school problems... which is too personal to talk about, but I will someday... when my fingers would have enough energy to type the whole thing out... for you and the world to understand.

I've changed my blogging style too. As you've noticed, I don't monologue anymore. I still do, but I'm more on this "conversing with you" thingy. It may freak you out on some level, but hey~ i didn't force you to read along.

Randomness, I miss KARA more than ever. =)